Forgiveness and Restoration ~ reflex on Jn 21:15-19

Breakfast on the beach with Jesus would not have been enough to convince the deeply sorrowful Peter that he was still loved by Jesus, still trusted enough by Jesus to lead the Church. Peter, who had protested boldly that he would die for Jesus, had almost immediately denied his dear Friend and Savior, the One he had declared to be the Christ, the Son of God; three times during His most difficult hours, Peter said he did not even know Him.

Peter had wept bitterly over this betrayal, and his tears still probably flowed intermittently at the thought of it. And now, the once proud and outspoken Peter - Kepha, the Rock - was standing again face to face with the One he loved but had not supported in His time of need. How could he forgive himself and stand tall before him?

He could not. But Jesus, the ever-merciful, ever-loving, ever-generous One, could. We see the Savior not content to leave Peter in his sorrowful state of regret, but reaching down to allow him to attest to his love three times, to make up for his three denials. Even more, Jesus draws Peter into his own role as the Good Shepherd, commanding him three times to feed His sheep. Peter’s fear caused him to deny his Lord, which ruptured his closeness to Jesus; Jesus brings him even closer than his original friendship, elevating him to head of the new family of God, the one who shepherds His sheep.

Peter is called to let go of his previous fear and return to the Arms of Love – the disciple must love the Son as the Son loves the Father and Father loves the Son, so that he can be drawn into that very love. “Follow me,” Jesus commands. Peter will ultimately give everything for this love, laying down his life as Jesus did. Like the Master before him, he will love unto death, in unconditional acceptance of the will of the Father, truly proving his love beyond words.

This is what Jesus offers each of us: in the sacrament of Confession, He offers His merciful forgiveness and restoration of all that our sins disfigure in us, and grace in abundance. Peter had wavered in the difficult hours of the Passion, but we witness Christ renewing him wholly and restoring him to the place he was called to fill: the Rock on which Jesus would build His Church, the primacy of authority over His Family on earth.