Just as the Father has commanded me ~reflex on John 14:27-31a
“The most important thing is your peace before God.” These wise words from a holy priest were hard to comprehend, spoken to me (peacefully!) in the midst of a great turmoil within and around me, and the need to take action when I did not know what to do. It seemed no matter what I did, others’ lives would be profoundly affected; an entire charitable project begun with solid spiritual foundations was at stake, and for the moment, I was the fulcrum. Because of ongoing conflict, I was being counseled to walk away, as the project was not the most important thing; my peace before God was more important.
There are many reflections on the peace that Christ gives, and it is true that deep and real peace in the face of difficulty can only come from Him. He tells us not to let our hearts be troubled or afraid, but there are troubling and fearful things happening to us and around us all the time! Are we expected to avoid all these disturbances and disasters? Are we supposed to turn a blind eye to suffering and hunger and catastrophe so that our peace is undisturbed?
No. Of course not. That would be impossible. Even pretending to “not see” the tragedies in this world would require us to be madmen. The “ruler of the world” that Jesus mentions in the Gospel, the enemy of our souls and of God’s Plan, is the reason for all the sin and sorrow in the world. And this enemy tries to maintain control of our hearts through fear and intimidation and by providing a false sense of security. But our peace comes from the Truth that this enemy has no power over us in Christ, that we are loved unconditionally and given the grace to love fully in return; our lives have meaning and purpose and mission. Christ illustrates this as He freely lays down His life in loving obedience to the Father, not because the enemy takes it from Him. We can have peace knowing that God is in control – no pain or tragedy or confusion can overpower Hi-s infinite love for us; we cannot out-smart His providence or out-sin His mercy. To know this peace, we must, like Christ, submit wholly and lovingly to the Father’s will, trusting that He will take care of the rest.
With a kind of bittersweet certainty, I did walk away from the project for which I had poured myself out. But even as the whole project unraveled, and others’ lives were affected, I was peacefully confident that the Lord would take care of all of us, and that we were all being given an opportunity to learn something eternally valuable through the long strain on our hearts and relationships. When we entrust everything to the Lord, we are blessed with peace and every good thing that we need.